I used to think that having a baby was as easy as wanting one, trying and waiting 9 months. And that I could plan how many children I wanted.
Then my daughter was stillborn at full term.
All of a sudden I had a much heavier decision to make.
I had so many questions:
- Could I handle being pregnant again?
- What if I had another loss?
- Should I put my living children through this again?
- Was I even healthy enough?
- When was the right time?
- Am I trying to replace my baby in the stars?
- What if I actually don’t want to do this again…then what?
- Is it giving up if I choose to stop trying to have babies?
- I want my children to have another sibling, what happens if they don’t?
- My partner and I disagree about what to do….now what?
It all felt so impossible to decide. I wished someone could just tell me how things were going to turn out. Then I wouldn’t be so confused and scared.
Friend, I don’t have a crystal ball to see everything in your future. I wish I did.
I do have a solution that will help you not only feel so much more peace and confidence, but